Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Another day

I know things will look up. I have learned to be patient at this point in my life. I know I am capable of doing just about any job. I am really enjoying the ophthamology education and am very thankful for it. I have a week off and start in again next week, I am really looking forward to getting back into it. I hope I can find a job before I am finished with school. I have a lot of life left and alot of energy and hopefulness. I know I have been a good mom and really enjoy my children. They are good kids and make good decisions even when they are still young, they really are lovely people and are alot of fun. I just wish our family could have stayed together and been a secure feeling for them. I will always be pained by this fact. But I plan to stay on course and be the best I can with what I have. I know from my own childhood experience that it is not how much we have but who we love and who loves us. It is such a blessing to be dedicated to someone whether it is a spouse, children or something we like to do. Money does not bring peace and happiness when there is strife which is an intrinsic problem within humanity. I knew as a small child that I just wanted to be loved unconditionally because I loved unconditionally maybe to a fault. Just love people for who they are and what they bring to the table not what they can do for you and just enjoy them and hopefully they are respectful.


  1. You will find the right thing for you eventually mom! I know it is hard for you right now. :( I think of and pray for you every day, I love you so much! :)

    ~Christina <3

    P.S. I'm glad you started a blog!

  2. Sounds like you're an amazing mom!! Good luck :)